I am so stinking mad right now. I want to do fun things with the kids but they make it IMPOSSIBLE!!!! I asked them this morning to clean the playroom so that we could do fun stuff. And asked...and asked.... and finally it is 12:30 so I make lunch and they promise that after lunch they will clean it. So After lunch I mop the kitchen and give them ANOTHER hour on top of that.... Then I finally send them to their room. I just can't deal with it. Why does it have to be like this? Why can't they just do a 15 minute project in 15 minutes and be done so that we can have fun???? I had planned on a movie this morning, lunch, a trip to Sonic for ice cream, play place at the mall (after I returned some stuff) , and playing games all afternoon. Instead I got a couple of kids who are grumpy and still refuse to clean. I don't want to do it for them because they start thinking that if they put it off Mom will do it for them every time. What am I supposed to do?????? I feel like such a failure as a mother for not being able to figure out something that seems so simple - getting your kids to clean up after themselves. Especially when there are awesome rewards involved. GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR!!!

Today I am so completely exhausted. I feel like laying on the couch is draining. I know I am not eating as healthy as I should be and havn't been exersizing very good. It is such a double edged sword. You are so tired that you can't exersize that it makes you more tired from not exersizing... GRRRRRR! I want more energy to keep the house clean and play with my beautiful kids! I have been doing so good but I just can't do any more today... The worst part is that today is when we are celebrating V-day so I really wanted to have a clean house for J. Oh well.... you get what you get and you don't throw a fit, right? That is what the kids always say, although Russ also says, "You get what you get and then throw a fit..." Stinker! He has also been saying lately, "I love you so much Mom, I will never forget your name!" Isn't that FUNNY!!!!!???? I love these silly kids!

My first post on the new blog!

Ok - Jen told me this is what she is doing for a journal, and it just makes sence! I never remember to write in mine and when I do it is too sloppy to read and needs serious editing if I want my posterity to ever read it so.... here we go! Plus - it is soooo much faster to type than to write! I am excited about this and I suppose I could "blurb" it into a book someday if I want! Good stuff! ~K